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LIA
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Friday, July 18, 2008, 8:37 PM
Please don't take my sunshine away.
I wish this feeling would go away.But I know it won't. Please ignore this post if you don't want to bother. ( especially you ) Somehow I feel really down. I put all my trust in you. I trusted you would not do things to hurt me. But I felt terribly wrong. I know ignorance is bliss, But I just had to keep asking. Maybe I feel so horrid cause you told me that when I needed you most. I wish I didn't make myself so reliant on you. I wish you weren't so nice to me. Because it just makes everything hurt more. I never expected things to become so cold. And I would never like for it to end this way. It hurts darn bad that I know now you won't be there for me. And that we became like strangers in matter if days. Almost everything reminds me of you. I don't wish to break down in front of you cause it'll just make you feel fucking disgusted. I know. But i have no idea how much longer I can put up this front. Thanks for everything, especially, the last 6 months. If it makes you feel better, I'd absorb all the unhappiness in return for everything you've done to make me happy. Or perhaps it is better this way, for you to hurt me before I hurt you. i'm sorry i'm sucha bitch. Sorry, just neeed to express my heaviness. I know I'm already making you feel irritated. But you won't understand, so please just let me be. I reckon things won't go well for some time. ); Give me a long long time to come out of this fucking nightmare. I'm very tired, i'll go to sleep. But the nightmares, they keep coming. I can't look for you for comfort anymore. I sleep to a nightmare, wake up facing another one. Everything seems blurry, I refuse to believe. I really wished all these didn't happen. |