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Monday, May 12, 2008, 2:50 PM
Screwed.
Hello World.Screwed the mathematics and geog papers. But they're over, so not going to talk about them. :D Though I met Mr Lew and I think he told me I totally screwed section A. But, I don't remember doing that? DANG. -,-'' After school went for some OCK. Then walked home. Plus I think I've got mental disorder. Seriously. Oh, 2 more papers to go. :D Let's go let's go. :D I know I'll never win you, so I thought I'd let you go. But I can't, I can't. I used to be able to. But after all that's happened, I can't seem to anymore. Yknow I really miss you. Where there wasn't any boundaries between us. That you. But I know you'll never come back. Thanks to an idiot - me. I'm sorry. I really am. I don't know why is it I can't let you go now. I keep holding you back, holding myself back. No matter how hard I try, I might be able to lie to everyone else. But never to you, or, me. Thing is, I can't even lie because everyone sees through it. I'm sorry I lie. Lie that I don't love you. Maybe I always am frustrated, not with you but me. I say I blame you, but I don't. Not at all. But now I'm sorry that I'm a selfish moron. Who doesn't want to hurt you or me. I saw you. You looked like you care but tried to give me the impression you didn't. Somehow, I felt it. Oh no, how could I be so stupid to trust my haywired feelings. NONONO. So I continue to lie to myself. That I don't love you. You don't love me. I don't feel anything. And let's just end it here, shall we? I feel you feel something, but nothing's gonna happen. So, forget it. So if only one day I'd tell you, I don't love you like I did, yesterday. |