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Friday, May 2, 2008, 7:03 PM
horrid feelings, go away please? Don't come again, any other day.
Now, I'm at loss. I really have no idea how to solve this shit I've gotten myself into. The day was quite frustrating but more of upsetting. Not like I want people to think I'm not sporting or I've got an attitude problem, but they get the idea I'm angry. But I feel more sad than angry.. I don't know what's happening. I want all these lousy things I'm feeling to go away. Because I know, they're not what I want to feel. Why is it all the horrible things have to attack when everything's bad enough. You thought there was an improvement, then bamm, something bad happens the next moment. I really don't want those things I'm feeling now. No point explaining, no one would understand. Not even me. How come my ice creams and chocolates don't seem to work anymore? My grape ice tasted bitter. It was supposed to make me feel better yeah. zzz I guess it feels great to have hopes raised as high as mount fuji, then throw you down from there. Sure, the feeling's so damn good. Hell yeah. Not at all. -,-''' Everything seems to be going so wrong. I know not why. Sometimes, you really make me feel okay. Like today. Sometimes, you make me feel like I matter. Sometimes, I'd rather not think. Sometimes, I imagine myself on the verge of dying, and I'd just like to let you know. You've never been far from me. Because I've always thought of you. Somehow, somewhere, deep deep down. Lol I don't even think I have time if I really was gonna die. But thanks __________, for doing those nice things sometimes. They may be nothing to you, but they make me feel better at times. You should know you do mean much to me. (: So I tell myself things will really be alright. And pray hard nothing goes more wrong, i hope so. goodbye. |