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Friday, April 25, 2008, 5:47 PM
So, we went to the swings after school. After getting my lino copied, and bubble tea. (:
School was alright. English was great. We had reccess with Mr Wu. And now I really hate that he has to leave. pfffft. Because he's really nice. -,-'' I had no idea __________. =/ That's why he's leaving I suppose. Never had such a nice English teacher before. (: Thank him niway.
Actually nothing much happened. Intend to study through the weekends, make better use of my life. -,-'''
Oh, and I think I seem to have a split personality. YIKES. Or maybe it's just that my feelings changes very fast. Or something else, or maybe ... ah shut up. Sometimes, I feel like a different person. Today again, I waited, and waited, in vain. Nothing happened. I don't seem to be seeing the buses as often anymore either. ;
I hope things really don't turn out the wrong way. Why? Why is this happening? DANG I'm not supposed to be doing or thinking of this, seriously.
Wrote this yesterday. Suddenly came into mind. I just can't help but I really really want to know what exactly happened. I know I'll never know, but still, I'd like to know, who's the liar. What happened in between. If what you said was true ; DAMN. How is it, nothing comes out of all those looks. -,-'''''''''''
Dear you :
You think it's very easy, isn't it? You don't think anything of it, right? You seem to enjoy making a fool out of me. Does seeing me wonder make you in any way happier? NO? Maybe you're unaware you do it. I've told myself it really really doesn't matter. But guess what, I lied. Yes, I lied, to you, and myself. Do you know what's happened all these months? It's clear you don't. I've said it again, '' it doesn't matter '' , but it does. It really does in fact. I try to lie, hoping it will make me feel better because the truth always hurts. But, no, it doesn't help seem to help anymore. I remember, from past till now. Remember how I used to feel. It's not the same anymore. I know, things will never never be the same again either. They won't be. There's an invisible wall parting us. I tried to break it, I know you tried to too. But it's still there. Maybe this wall will never go away. I really don't know. All I want to know is, what happened between that period. I want to know _____________.
I'd really like to tell you these, but I won't.
I'll continue to lie ; It wouldn't have hurt so much if I didn't know all that. If you never gave me those looks, done those things. You may say I look too much into them. But the feelings, how wrong could they go? x.x
Somehow, I feel it's over. You've given me up. Maybe, same here too.
From : me.
That was from another part of me. This part's telling me, that was a whole load of shitty crap. :D
Goodbye.