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Thursday, March 20, 2008, 8:50 AM
Till today, approximately 99432689790189589 of my cells have been killed. In terms of brain cells and nerve cells. There's nothing I can do about it. I spent the day spacing as usual. I was ultimately hell stressed, and upset because of some ridiculous things. And things which I hate bothering babe about. Somehow I knew these would happen. It really made me hate myself. I haven't been vulgar for long, but I said them 5 times or so today. Pathetic. But I've kinda got rid of the habit. It just comes out once in a while. Back to why I hate myself. I do things, regret, try to make up for them, and think too much. I know I'm a big big big fool. Sometimes, I feel sore perhaps, and I did a little purposely talk to them near him. It seemed he was upset with me. And he kinda ignored me pretty much. x.x I felt horrible for what I did. I hate to see people sad. I would tell myself not to do it again, but once I see or feel certain things, I do them again. I know I should really stop already. Maybe it's all my fault then .. I was supposed to keep them for him, but they ran out just in time. Anyway, thanks someone who said my eyes were nice in the sun. :D And someone who said he'll buy me sweets for tomorrow. Thanks guys, all of y'all for being so nice. I really don't know what he's feeling. And I'm not sure what I am too. I was so disappointed because I thought something else was going to happen. I wanted to cry, but wasn't allowed to. ); Just what the heck am I doing with my little life.... I don't wanna hurt anyone. But I don't wanna get hurt either. I never like to see you sad. Now I just feel like sleeping. sleeping it over... |