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Tuesday, March 25, 2008, 10:47 AM
I've woken up from 5 hours + of slumber.It has made me calmer, but the problem's still there. As I listen to X Japan's piano version of tears, water runs, again. I can't seem to control myself now. Why? I hate this bloody feeling. And I'm contemplating if I should go to school tomorrow. Because I don't feel like seeing you, as much as I want to. I'm afraid I'll be 'angry' when I see you. But the fact is I'm hell disappointed, and I appear disgusted or angry, to cover up how upset I really am. SEE HOW FAKE I AM? =,= Maybe that's just being stupid to you. Perhaps, I really am that insignificant to you. I guess, they all don't matter anymore. Maybe, you like to pull my hopes high, and let me fall deep, then just throw me somewhere else after that. It seems you genuinely forgot, it seems, you were regretful about it. But I won't allow any hopes, anymore. I told myself, this would be the last time. If I don't matter to you, then you wouldn't matter to me. A blatant lie it is.. Now I'm in a mess... I've decided, if I'm feeling better, I WILL GO TO SCHOOL. I STILL HAVE THEM TO SEEEEEEE. At least they love me, unlike you. They care for me, unlike you. Eating a bunch of sweet things aren't helping much.. There are too many 'maybes' , and I've really got a hunch, but I refuse to trust this hunch. It's an undescribable horrible feeling, I don't wish to face up to. Let's just take it as it was all my damn fault. ALRIGHT? goodnight. |