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Sunday, March 9, 2008, 3:02 PM
hi world.I'm back again. Maybe, because i feel i can confide by blogging. (; The fact is, i'm not over it yet. I think about it almost every minute. I really don't know what i'm doing. And i realise, it's not possible that no one can make you feel the things you don't want. I wonder, how a person can make you feel as much as hurt as happy. HOW? i have no idea why _________ disappoints me like that. ); nevermind. I hate this pondering. I know i have better things to do yeah. But i just can't get my mind off it. It's hell irritating. I've told myself a thousand times. But it's all alright, i'll take things slowly, one step at a time for the time being. No matter what, i know i can't change what's been done. Life's full of choices, and i can choose to look forward, or have the urge to fall back into the past. I can choose to do realistic things, or have wishful, stupid thoughts. The choices are obvious right? I can continue to lie to myself, for as long as i want. And, at the end of the day, I'll just be at the losing end. ---- I know i should stop this already. I know not why i should deceive myself. How could a thing be so hurtful yet able to make your day at the same time. I'm not sure if I'm ready for a feeling like that. Perhaps, i'm not matured enough to handle these things. I wouldn't be able to take another blow. Time and again, I've deceived myself. If a love is full of deception, how could it be happy? Something as hurtful, as deceitful, couldn't be love, could it? Can someone tell me what in the world is love? -,-''''' But i know i love them. :D Maybe, i just need some time, to think. And make up my mind, once and for all. I just need that ounce of courage, and strength, to throw those feelings away. If you're tired of reading what i'm writing, i really don't care. I feel like i'm talking to myself anyway. Goodnight, off to slumber land. With my mind in chaos x.x At this point of time, I'd just like to know, if you've ever felt anything, ANYTHING for me at all ? I won't deny, i still feel. )x |