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Tuesday, March 18, 2008, 9:59 AM
Didn't post yesterday.
Well, I basically spent the whole day eating yeah. That's all. And I got my shoes. (;
Today, was alright as well. Other than the fact that my feelings are running all over the place. x.x I took 28 to interchange then another bus back. I wanted to space but I got tired of thinking about the same thing, over and over again, I decided sleep was more precious, so I caught 40 winks. Ah whatever.
I was late for school, but the last person who kinda stepped into the gate. But I didn't go stand with the rest anyway.
I feel like going to school myself tomorrow. I feel sorry that because somehow I was too engrossed with my pathetic thoughts, I didn't really answer people. Especially during home ec, Pearl asked me questions, and although I tried my best to answer, my answer was just I didn't know. Lousy answers, yeah I know.
I just stone and space all the time. And I think I'd like the feeling of being alone on the way to school tomorrow. Nothing's probably gonna happen tomorrow. x.x
People reading my blog would probably find me a bore. Even more with the way I feel nowadays. It's mostly about the same thing all the time. But it's a fact I don't even know how I feel. Seee how stupid I've become. Or perhaps I'm numbed already. I don't seem to feel the heart sink anymore. It's obvious I should take Babe's advice and just be happy when things happen but don't read or think too much about them. Somehow, it's true. But still, I keep thinking...
I ought to be happy with the way things are right now. As much as I can't help to wonder, I keep supressing. Am I supposed to continue liking you? I dare not confirm the look in your eyes. They look like you care, but maybe I think too much. Are you making an effort? I'm afraid, all these is just an illusion again. I hope you'd stop giving me the wrong impression. If it's fake, you don't have to do these things to make me feel better. Because the moment I think that you're giving me the false impressions, the tears just come falling out. By doing that, you're hurting me even more.
Your eyes, seem to be telling me something sometimes. But I don't dare to look straight into them, I afraid of giving myself away. ); Perhaps, I think too much again.
Is it possible that someone who's hurt you, loves you?
Maybe you should know you're the first person who's made me feel this way.
__________, you're never far from my mind.
And I really wouldn't like another round of games.
x.x
Thanks God, Babe and friends. Thank you babe for putting up with my crap all the time. love ya :D
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