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LIA
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Friday, February 22, 2008, 12:28 PM
hey.whatever i say here, just remember. i am not emo- ing. okay? i'm seriously alright, i think. i've been thinking lately. a lot. i've realised how lousy i am. how i've not kept promises to myself. sucky enough? i'm fucking flunking everything. am i lousy enough? i know i've tried, but not hard enough. i'm trying to try hard, real hard. but somehow, it doesn't seem to be working. i don't wish to disappoint myself, again. plus my dear mother. =/ i really don't want to give up? maths, it's killing me. many other things, are going to kill me too. it doesn't feel good to fail yeah.. i know maybe people might think, i'm just saying all these to gain sympathy or whatsoever shit. but i don't give a damn. -,-''''''' i'm just writing what i feel about MYSELF. when i'm feeling lousy enough, why do you have to come with all that sarcasm still? can't you be a lil more patient? i don't know lah. i don't want to let myself down any longer. i want to try. HARD. all these years, i've never given my best. WHAT WAS I DOING? slacking. i can't do that anymore. i'll fail terribly. then i don't want to regret again. .... if i don't start trying now, then i don't know when i can start. everybody else seems to be doing fine, except me i guess. at least if i've tried, i know i have. i somehow already regret a million things i've done with my life. and i don't want that to happen again and again, repeatedly. no one will understand, how disappointed i am, IN MYSELF. i'm sorry, lia. i haven't done my best, at all.. i'll try to try alright. i'm sorry, mum. i don't intend to let you down. ); i'm tired, of trying to chase after the world. ); i'm not gonna wallow myself in self pity, i'll work things out. JIAYOU JIAYOU! thanks guys, for always being there for me. (; goodnight. weird person, i don't know. |