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Sunday, February 17, 2008, 8:03 AM
hello.initially wasn't in a very good mood. and i've just figured some things out. and i hope these things which i've figured, won't change me. gosh, i'm confused. had band just now, not bad. (; we had sectionals then 15 mins of saturday night fever. PHEW, the whole sound's improved. though, there's something wrong with me today. =/ gahhh. then came the part, where i 'argued' with someone. affected me hell load. now i wonder why i've become like that. )x i noticed, i'm a changed person. i've become more quiet, comparing to past. quiet as in i keep things to myself? and i don't feel like talking more often. CRAP. =/ i'm sick of being blamed when it's not my fault. i'm sick of feeling guilty when i've done nothing wrong. i'm sick of feeling disturbed over things which are not important. and i hate being the one who feels bad, when it's not me who has done wrong. why do i have to apologise when i'm not at fault?? my conscience's gone haywire. and i'm always feeling bad for nothing. over sensitive or what? i'm really tired of being brave sometimes.... and i wish i could just break down, but i can't. that's not my nature, and i can't bring myself to. but maybe, i will someday, when something's really really wrong. it feels like i'm getting closer to that day.. i'm sorry, i'll try my best to be there for you people, but perhaps, there'll come a day when, i can't and won't be there anymore.. weird person, please stop driving me nuts. would you? i wish you'd stop keeping me waiting. i wonder if, i should still wait. now, i feel that it's real. but i like to lie to myself. so, please tell me the truth? before it's too late... PLEASE? i love you....
now i feel so .... weird. i'm afraid of losing you guys.. so much. ;x thanks, _________. but i'm sorry. so sorry. ); |