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Sunday, January 13, 2008, 3:34 AM
heyyyyyy.i'm going out later, taking a ONE HOUR bus trip, ALONE. but i like it ;D so i can plug my ears, and think, kinda feel sad, although i don't want to. it's pathetic to be alone aye? haha whatever. sometimes, i like to be alone alright, x) i had a good breakfast, super delicious. (: i think, i can never show what's real here again. because i've told a lie =/ but i had to anyway. as you can see, i'm not in the best of moods today, i'm talking so much crap. to be frank, i think i'm a failure .. big time failure, i keep telling myself, encouraging myself, but in the end, i still don't feel totally fine. eveyone has the wrong impression of me, and i'm not as strong as they think, neither am i that happy, can't you guys see, i'm just doing that cause i don't wish to trouble you with my problems? i'm doing that cause i don't wanna spoil your day? i'm not going to emo in school, like have you ever seen me do it? NO. or maybe it's cause you guys make me happy, until i've actually forgotten my sadness? i guess so, all of it, though just for a moment, it comes back still.. i'm not exactly sad, not actually happy, i don't even know what i'm feeling. feels so bleakkkkkkkkkk. my future looks bleak, =/ and let's just say, i really don't know anymore. all i know is, i'm the stupidest person on earth. ): i've lost okay? lost to you .... and myself -,-''' but i won't cry, there's nothing to cry about, i can't cry anymore, NO TEARS! save water(: sometimes i talk so much nonsense, i bet people are confused, so trust me, don't guess, it'll make your head hurt, (: i can change in a second, be happy the next moment, how? i don't know how. perhaps, we're just not meant. but thanks for your love. this is one whole load of nonsense, on a saturday morning, i'm afraid i'll be infected with SATURDAY NIGHT FEVEER! lol jia you everyone! goodbye..... gosh, i haven't started on my homework! |